Doldrums, Sock Lust, and more ramblings
Thanks to those who have written me with encouragement in the past two weeks. I’m coming to terms with everything but things got delayed as my father was in the hospital most of last week with blood clots in the lungs. He’s fine now but since his father died from blood clots unexpectedly, we were all more than a bit nervous. And it may be another genetic condition to which I may be predisposed, so I’m awaiting the results of his testing almost as much as he is. Since I have so far gotten every single disease known on either side of the family, and often younger than the “normal” onset, I’m starting to become a little obsessive about knowing just what may becoming down the pike. (And desperately praying that I miss out on Alzheimer’s!) I’m not crazy enough to think that I will get everything, but my odds are batting 1000 against me at the moment so I want to know what to be screened for.
Anyway, all of this has sent my mental health into something of a spiral. I normally have a depressive episode in February each year so it’s probably just a slightly delayed reaction combined with family illness (father inlaw then father) and the upheaval of my new diagnosis. It’s not that diabetes is a problem per se, it’s that I’m having to give up several coping mechanisms and unorthodox (but working for me) treatment strategies so my symptom load is going very high and I just feel like things are still very chaotic. Well, in fact they are, as we’ve yet to decide on new treatment regimes so I’m kinda of flying blind. Hence the “doldrums” part of the title. The grey, rainy weather isn’t helping any and knitting with my brightest yarn isn’t helping there either. When not even beading magazines can cheer me, I know it’s getting bad. So I have a med review this week, one of my four appointments this week when I don’t have the energy to get out of bed let alone trek to the doctors and hospitals. It has to be done though as I can’t handle much more of the way I am feeling…
But enough about that, let’s talk socks I have been wanting to order a sock loom but have been put off by how many sizes there are (so if I make socks for myself and my mom I’d need a different loom for my husband and dad) and how long of a wait it is to get a loom. I think I’m just going to have to bite the bullet and order one though as I know that with diabetes foot care is important and that means wearing socks all of the time. I generally try to escape socks as much as possible and right now can only cope with toe socks or part cashmere (luckily I got a bunch of lambswool and cashmere at TJ Maxx last year for $5/pair). I’m hoping though that hand-knit socks will be every bit as amazing as everyone says. I also know from trying to get people to make hats for me that I won’t just be able to lean on folks to get some socks either so like hats I’m just going to have to make them myself. So if anyone reading this has sock looms and likes or dislikes them, please let me know which one(s) you have! I am hoping to use proper sock yarn (and do not like slipper socks or anything bulky!!!).
(As an aside, if anyone has single socks languishing without mates, my husband refuses to wear matching socks so will happily give them a good home He also could not care less what gender they were meant for or even if they fit him properly or not! So if you have second sock syndrome but can’t bear the thought of frogging the one you already made, he can put them to good use.)
In other news, I’m finishing up the mate to the Lagoon legwarmer. I had hoped to have it done by today but I was getting hotspots again so I am taking it slower. Then I need to really get cranking to finish my afghan for Tricot du Coeur as that is due this month. I made a hat inspired by Annie Modesit’s rasta hat but have yet to photograph it. I think I need to order a styrofoam head form for better hat photos plus I can use it for making felted hats. So another thing I just need to get off my rear and order! I’m just being a bit stingy since we’re going to Paris next month and always waaaay overspend there so we’re putting off nonessential purchases as much as we can just in case. Ooh, I should start looking for the Parisian yarn shops…:)
Oh, and I shall need to buy a spindle as my spinning class is very soon and I’m sure I will want to keep going at home!
Well I have to go, I’ve got an appointment to attend and miles to go before I sleep….